First I would like to start off by saying Happy Holidays to everyone. Well I went out yesterday to Starbucks to get some coffee and to really think about what I would write about this week and I came up with eight somewhat alright topics and I was sure I was going to write about it yesterday afternoon, but never got to it. I woke up this morning sure that I would write on that topic, but as the day went on I decided I was going to wait on writing on that topic until later this week. With that being said, I decided to write on a topic that has been on my mind a lot lately.
Lately if you have asked the people around me or my parents they would say that I have been in a funk. I’ve been somewhat isolated and I’ve been quiet. With that being said, I guess you could say I’ve been in a funk. When I think about when I was just starting high school at 14 almost 15 years old I am not where I think I would be at 21 years old. I thought I would be at some bigger college where ever I lived, but here I am in a joint admissions programs with a community college and the University of Houston Downtown. I thought I would be out in a dorm or in an apartment with a friend (granted I will be living on my own in an apartment in the later part of this year.)
So, I started to think today where do I see myself 10 years from now? I honestly guess that is a question people ask themselves multiple times in their lives. Well, when I started to think about it I saw myself out of Texas somewhere in the North Eastern United States, because I always wanted to live there. I have finished grad school, have met the love of my life and have been married for a few years now. We have a kid and I get to travel all around the world with work. In my mind this is what I expect my future to be like and as much as it would be great, when I think about it I really hope it doesn’t end up this way.
Where do I realistically see me life in 10 years? Well, I do see myself out of grad school and working and I do have a child. Now do I see myself in the North Eastern United States with the love of my life? No. I see myself still in the Houston area as a single parent. I know being a single parent is not the easiest thing thin the world, but with the support system I have I know I could pull it off. I’m not saying that I will never meet the love of my life, I’m just saying that I don’t think I will meet him in the next 10 years. I’m honestly okay with the idea of not meeting the love of my life in the next 10 years.
When I think about how much I want to be a parent, I think about how much my parents want to be Grandparents. Honestly, when I think about my parents the only thing they want to be more than retired in Grandparents. Growing up, I never really got to see my grandparents a lot. My mom’s mom died before I was born and the same with my dad’s dad. I saw my mom’s dad as much as we could before he passed away when I was in the seventh grade. He was honestly one of my best friends. When it comes to my dad’s mom I’ve seen her a few times, but not as much as my mom’s dad and we never really had the same relationship.
When it comes to my child, I want them to be able to be close and have strong relationship with their grandparents. I know it is hard growing up and losing a grandparent or not having a strong relationship with them and I don’t want that for my child. I would be happy living in the Houston area with my child so I could bring him or her over to my parents house every weekend except when my parents are out of town so that my child and parents could have the relationship that I wish I could of with all of my grandparents.
I guess in the long run, the reality of my future is very much Gilmore Girls with being a single parents, Friday night dinners with my parents, a career and a closeness with my child.
With that all being said, I guess the most curious thing of all is life. We never know where life is going to take us or what it has in stored with us, but I do know one thing. That one thing is, don’t stress too much on life. Life is going to throw a bunch of curveballs at you, but life does that to help you. Life puts people in our lives to help teach us lessons and sometimes life is the one who is teaching us lessons. I’ve had this expectation of where I thought life would take me, but when I think about it, I hope that isn’t how my life turns out. So, relax and let life work it course. Enjoy the small things like Sunday afternoon dance parties (if you want to see the video that I made of my afternoon dance party today let me know,) and raking up leaves in the beautiful weather, because it is the little things in life that makes it wonderful and helps you learn.
Now where do you think you will be in 10 years?
The Curious Life of Jesse 